Alright, so...it's almost the end of summer

and I've changed


alot. And I've done alot and alot and alot of things.

But, in the end...I still know that no people will ever ever ever compare to the ones that I made at the end of my sophmore year.

And I miss them very very very much. And I get to see some of them tomorrow

and as for the rest of them...well, us five will all be back together soon. Once everyone all comes back to the states. Even though three of you guys graduated, we'll still be close no matter what. No one else see's the real me like you guys do.

I've moved on alot from the past. I've grown a little stronger. I'm a little more independant. And maybe Junior year will be my first year where I have fun the whole time.


:-)

So, I decided to hang out with my parents when they invited me on their picnic. It was one part default, one part fate, one part will.

We walked for an hour straight first, because my parents always have their daily walk together. I guess for their little time together out of the house.

And, I brought my camera, and my dad and I were constantly stopping and he would help me out with shots.

It was actually alot of fun.

My dad was really interested in if I had a boyfriend. I think he's determined it's one of my friends. And it isn't.


Ah, yes. And Common Sense was AWESOME last night. Right up front.

So last night, about 10 of us met up

and I actually didn't suck at poker. Texas Hold 'em is the best game around.

:-D

I found the USB cord to my camera....my mom lost it when she brought it back from europe...oui

I'm pretty sure I've done almost everything on my list that I wanted to get done


I hate when summer ends

Playing life


smashed








No fear

Fucking Warped Tour

it was a blast

except for the fact that even when I tried to keep it boy free to escape the drama

it still managed to have boys in it long enough to stir drama


god damnit


I finally went crowd surfing though


oh well, four years down

So


oh my god

Bobby walks into the room

and I saw my sister in him completely

I never even met him before

and I was just like...hello brother

grandpa

oh my god, he is the funniest man EVER

I can't believe if it was the first time I've ever met them


Craig...Sarah's dad

I saw him...but he hid

and didn't say anything when I walked into the room

which is good, I really wasn't interested in meeting him for my moms sake

I prolly shouldn't post this

but it's something I've been dealing with for 16 years


I'm meeting my family? my other half? other third?

and my mom is out of the country

and I'm going to be in a beach house with the asshole that abused her

and my sister

he'll prolly be off wasted somewhere and wont know the difference

but I get to meet the brother I never knew my sister had


which means... I had!

cheerio!

I was looking through all of my moms MILLIONS of books

and I found one

Valley of the Dolls

I think it's kinda funny that it was next to Ayn Rands essay on Selfishness

but what are you gonna do?

So, now I have a book to read

:-)

Yesterday I was able to cross off a day of nothingness but just relaxing.



today I'm adding to that list with my annual summer cleaning


time to get rid of some stuff

it's kind of nice being home alone


I can blast Copeland

but there's a reason for the alone part.

Date:	2006-07-01 11:58
Subject:	My first entry for '06
Security:	Public
Mood:	awake
Music:	La Surf~Authority Zero

So...so far I've done the following...

sang infront of a crowd
gone to hooters
gone on a rollarcoaster*I think I'm over my ickyness towards it*
saw a sunset at the beach
been to a concert
been out way later than I should have been
done nothing I regret
gotten lost in San Diego
been to the gas lamp at night
gone on an adventure with no sure destination

Left to do:

Warped Tour
Rx Bandits
Go on a loop rollarcoaster
surf
scream at the top of a mountain at sunset
read and finish a great book
have a day of absolute NOTHING
movie hop
go to Balboa Park
fill my room even more with pictures
clean my room and keep it that way...
see the Format


there's more...oh, there's lots more

Summer Cleaning



wooo!

And by the way you brought me here,
it makes me believe the best is still yet to come and I don't want to leave.
Forgive my hesitation but I'm learning to trust in you.
Help me to dream these dreams because I don't have a clue.

And if you'd be honest and say what you mean
you know I would promise I'd do anything
because I know that without you I'm giving it away.

Is this what you wanted?
'Cause I'm willing to change.
Now that I'm certain,
that there's much more to gain.
You've introduced me to the moment
oh but I'm looking to stay for good.
You asked me to stay forever.
Well, you know that I would, I would do anything.

And if you'd be honest and say what you mean
you know I would promise I'd do anything
'Cause I know that without you I'm giving it away.

The nights are forever and maybe I'm wrong,
but it feels like I'm so lost without you.
So I step towards the heat, it's the way I can see,
and it makes me believe that it's you.

And by the way you brought me here
it makes me believe the best is still yet to come and I don't want to leave,
I won't, but anyway...

If you'd be honest and say what you mean
you know I would promise I'd do anything
And the nights are forever, I can't get to sleep
'Cause I know there's a reason I'm in this too deep
And I'm sure that without you, I'm giving it away, yeah.

I'm giving it away...

Date:	2005-05-22 17:12
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	chipper
Music:	Guns N' Roses~ Sweet Child O' Mine

This weekends been awesome!

Friday-

Went downtown to meet up with undercover cops.

Tom*undercover cop* drove Amy and I in his Mustang to the Sherrif station. Then our groups were assigned and we left for Imperial beach, and had caught two guys*one of em came back after us to get his cigarrets when we were walking away so the cops could get him... except we thought he was just coming to get us not the cigs till all of a sudden one of the undercover cop cars came around the corner really fast and stopped like half a foot behind me and jumped out with their guns and pinned him to the car (it was awesomeness) they found out he had other drugs on him and a possible warrent for his arrest It was awesome. Some good stories...but that's another deal.

Another cop drove me home, and I didn't get in till like 2...and then I had to get up at 8 to be at the school by 9ish. Ewy


It was fun though. At the foster picnic I had a huge water fight with a bunch of little kids, held a baby goat, held a baby chick, ate about 5 snowcones with Lauren, played volleyball, went in one of those jumpyjump things with Lauren hahahah she fell on her ass and listend to some good live music*singer was pretty hot* I came home and fell asleep


Theeeeeeeeeeeeeen today I woke up and then hung out with my friends at Target, and went to cold stone.

Headed over to Alexs and tanned.


Now I gotta do homework.


And go for a run *yay!*

Date:	2005-05-22 11:38
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	relaxed
Music:	Metric~Combat Baby

Hmmmmmm. First entry ever!! Woo!



I think I'm gonna write later. I'm too lazy right now. Plus takin a shower sounds really good.